Beth's posts with tag: me
 | My race | Nov 6, '08 9:48 AM
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All this time, I always hold a pen/ pencil between forefinger and middle finger while normally people holding pen between their thumb and forefinger. I don't know how did it start, I just used to it. When I signed something in school last time, Miko-the guy who works there ,quite amused to see how I hold the pen while writing. He tried to do it also but failed. Then he told his colleagues how interesting to see a Chinese holding a pen. I then tried to explain that I'm not Chinese and the way how I hold the pen has nuthing to do with race or nationality. But then the problem was getting more interesting, not about how I hold the pen but about the race itself, cos then the guy said, "but you are Asian." "Yes but do you know that Indian and Japanese are also Asian? And they are not Chinese." "Are you saying that you are Japanese? Are you Indian? You come from Indonesia, right? It's your nationality, but I'm talking about your race." "Yes, by nationality I'm Indonesian but by race I'm not Chinese. We have Chinese also in Indonesia, but I'm more a Malay." I said Malay cos I don't think Javanese is a race, am I right? I think Javanese is more like ethnic groups like Sundanese, Balinese. "Only four races in the world dear Beth. It's Caucasian, African, Native American and Mongolian," Miko said. "And where is Chinese?" Miko started to be confuse, "Hm good question. Where is Chinese ya? And where is Malay?" "I guess under those four main races, there are sub-races including Malay. I think it's under Mongolian. But I'm not sure." Miko then promised to do more research about race. Cos all this time he always think that all Asian people which not dark-skin means Chinese. He thank me to let him know that his knowledge is wrong. And just now I have time to check in wikipedia about race. Well I'm kinda right. And the good think is now I know how to explain. Before, I always said to people that I'm Javanese and even that is not wrong but not everybody know what and where is Indonesia, moreover Java. It will be damn complicated to them if I try to explain about an island called Java which has different language and physical characteristic with people in Irian Jaya...bla...bla...
Yup the internet is normal again and I'm full time back again. The last weeks without internet was really catastrophe for me. Even working card from Daniel's office and net connection from my mobile phone were helping, but I can only reach limited access! And in the same time I had several deadlines to do, one of them is last step of website building which I only can do it when I have internet connection! My clients busy searched for me cos I rarely online anymore. Called me and called them are non-avoidable and it took high cost for me and high cost for them cos my client and my working partner are worldwide!(Beside that, in fact I'm not into telephone when its regarding works. I prefer emailing, for me its more decent and the data can be always trackable.) And this morning when telecom guy came to re-active my connection...phew! I love that ugly guy more than chocolate! 
Ich hab die theoretische Führerscheinprüfung geschafft! Yippie!! One burdening thing had done...now try to finish the rest!
Asyem, abis di ke Köln, pulangnya dicegat polisi.
Ceritanya, begitu sampe di stasiun sini, gue naik sepeda buat ke rumah yang jaraknya msih sekitar 1 km. Naik sepedanya super ngebut karena dingin, nggak pake jaket tebel...Soalnya tadi pas baru berangkat gak dingin-dingin amat. Kira-kira 300m dari rumah dicegat polisi, ditanyain siapa namanya, mau kemana dari mana, bla...bla...endingnya; Frau Agustina, anda bermasalah karena naik sepeda gak pake lampu.
Halah, mana gue tau kalo lampu gue ternyata matek (seingat gue dulu sempet idup :D) ? Mana gue tau kalau ternyata lampu di sepeda hukumnya adalah wajib. Dengan muka dimelas-melasin gue bilang aja kalau ich habe keine Ahnung kalau lampunya rusak. Kirain masih nyala. Untung pak polisinya baik...jadi gue gak didenda, cuman dinasehatin aja hehe...
Tapi ngasih nasehatnya lumayan lama bo...Secara dia mikir gue nggak ngerti hukum-hukum persepedaan di negeri Hermann, dia neranginnya jadi kemana-mana. Wuih, padahal asli dingin di jalanan. Akhirnya setelah gue pasang bahasa tubuh gemetaran karena dingin, dia nyuruh gue lanjut jalan 
Jadi ingat, dulu sering pulang dari kampus kemalaman. Rumah gue cuman sekitar 500m dari kampus tapi otw there nggak ada lampu sama sekali dan kanan-kirinya sawah. Tapi gue lancar aja tuh, nggak pernah nyebur. Bukan karena gue punya keahlian melihat dalam kegelapan ya...Tapi karena gue udah apal jalannya. Cuman ya kadang-kadang musti melindas kotoran sapi atau bahkan ular. Rumusnya cuman satu; naik sepedanya musti ngebut biar ularnya mencelat instead of mlungker di roda. Pokoknya asal jangan ada orang jongkok di jalan, pasti selamat deh! :D
| no WHY | Sep 3, '08 10:32 AM
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I kinda lost my friend this last 3 months. Suddenly I just lost contact. I tried to call her at home, cell or sms but no reply at all. Gladly, days ago I met her husband and he told me that his wife-my friend is sick.
Three months? What kinda sickness? Is it so bad? Husband said she got depression and have to meet counselor regularly. Eh? I never realize that she has such a big problem that makes her depression. But then husband told me again that it's because she keeps thinking of her 2 years marriage but still no kid yet. Oh...
Well, what can I say. I just thx God that I'm not a person who like to dive into a sadness of a failure. I'm not that good in thinking so deep of my bad times. My fave quote is forget and go on (donno quote from who though :D) and my two cents is: keep hoping is good as long as it doesn't contain question 'why'.
Long, happy life and rock and roll!
 I just had my breakfast. Yes, at 12.23 o'clock. I'm kinda busy cos my client just back from holiday so I'm pushed again. And in the same time I start to organize my photostocks and damnit, its not as easy as I thought. So now let me have a break a little bit. Let me bitch things which I think It's not in (my) ordnung. 1. I start to hate Panic at the Disco cos it always reminds me of Sheila on 7! Euh... 2. I have to admit that even I want to have child (children) but I'm not a fan of kids. Doesn't mean that I dislike or hate kids but I just can't handle it and always feel bothered when kids around me. I'm only nice to my sister's kids or my other family's kids (oh but they're already grown up! Yippie!) or only when those children are damn cute. My mommy is a kids lover and she always be a volunteer to take care kids around the block when their parents busy. BUT when I'm around, my mom always turn her responsibility to me. Help! I don't like crying baby, or bloody spoily girl asking for candy. I don't mind hang out with mommies who bring their kids with, but I always pray that those kid will be nice, quiet or better if they find something to do instead of crawling on their mommy's lap. Hey, don't bitch me back! I'm not a mother so you cannot complaint! Maybe when I have my own kid(s) later, it would be change. And I'm sure that when its my own kid (as my feeling to my sister's kids), I won't be bothered to be bother :) 3. After my miscarriage, somehow I become bloody lazy. Only show up to the gym once since, and always no mood to go to school. Euh... 4. I hate Donny on msn right now. I asked him few question about language and he does speech of German history and UFO! 5. I'm busy searching how to solve my hairloss problem. I want to grow my hair (yes, never had long hair before) but since its longer, I have more hair on the floor :( I don't have much choices, keep it longer without hairloss problem or cut it! Last option is the simplest but i want to have long hair!! 6. Yesterday I paid a visit to driving school. David, the teacher explained about signs like mommy's holding kid sign (means pedestrian street), horse with someone on the top sign, cow sign, deer sign. And at the moment Germany has issue with too much street signs that people barely remember any signs! And while David showed us that, I was thinking that Germany while trying to reduce street signs, they need to add one more signs as well; sign with someone's holding dog  Well...I need to go back to work now. Have a nice weekend everyone! footnote:
I'm aware that; because of this topic number 2, some people will think I did abortion last time. No, abortion is a BIG NO No for me. You can see in my old posts how I really hate people who doing that. I consider it as killer and I'm not a killer!
Topic number 2 also answer question why I never reply on someone's post about their kids. But when Its unique story (e.g mas Fadhiil!!)I would love to read and even give comments. And when its story about how kids growing in general (plus with not interesting writing style), well its just not my time to read it yet :D
| TOOL | Jul 24, '08 12:05 PM
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Just back from massage. I read an ad in local newspaper about newly open massage house and since it just around the block, I decide to give it a try.
Foot reflection massage was super but the back massage was...na...ja...it feels like someone rub my back instead of massaging hehe...But because the lady was nice, I wasnt really dissapointed. Will back there again for foot massage.
The tool I have here is even better than her. Can you recognize this tool? Sara, a friend of us was quite amused when she saw it in our living room. She thought its a sex toy and she was amazed how could we put sex toy in living room! Hehehe...
Dasar bukan tukang cetak, dasar nggak pernah ngurusin percetakan selama kerja di publishing (soalnya ada bagiannya sendiri), hari ini gue bingung pas mau cetak buat brosur. Maunya cetak online, praktis dan cepat, bisa export data liwat internet aja. Dan tinggal nunggu 5 hari, terima deh kiriman cetakan. Tapi pas liat-liat jenis kertasnya gue langsung menegang. Kok nggak ada ya istilah artpaper??
Adanya offset white paper, offset colour paper, image printing paper white, dan invercote paper. No idea at all...Dari pada salah trus dicetakain di kertas foto, gue ngimil cs-nya. Nanyanya rada aneh: kertas apa yang biasa dipakai di cover majalah?
Jawabnya cs. rada reseh: Macam-macam lho kertas buat cover majalah itu. Yang mana maksut lo?
Replynya rada sebel: Yah, let say Cosmopolitan UK edisi June. Kertas apa tuh?
*nunggu jawaban*
So yesterday it was a really good weather and we had nuthing to do (you know, Sunday in Germany...). So after lunch we decided to go swimming and it was a good idea. A big swimming pool (which has separated place with kids!) with big park so we can just lay down under the tree with flowers around beside swimming around like a duck. Really different with the last time I came to this swimming pool - on winter!
In a ticketing Daniel asked me if I like to have 4 hours or two hours ticket. Again it was sunny weather and we had nuthing to do (and additionally, I brought a lot of food and water also!), so we went for 4 hours.
Passed the electric door with coin, went to dressing room, wore my bikini, walking around a little bit in indoor swimming pool then headed to outdoor one. Placed our picnic blanket neatly, open food box, took ipod, put sun-protection lotion and then lay down in front of the fat lady with red bikini.
Then the story went on. After 10 mins lay down, we decided to go swim. So we woke up and walked around 30 meters to the pool. Was already jumped to the water when I forgot my goggle. I went back to my blanket and on the way there, suddenly sumthing hit my left feet. I looked down, damnit! A stinger! Maybe from a bee! Or at least a BIG BEE! Cos I didn't see the animal who was nicely left his stinger in my feet! It was quite pain but I was okay.
I took my goggle and back to the pool.Water gave a comfy feeling for my bulging feet. But then the area under my right eye became itchy.I ignored it, just an itchy. But then again...its getting bigger. So I asked the swimming pool management if they have kinda cream cos it might be from caterpillar. Bad luck, they don't have it. But its ok, not that bad...we back to our blanket again, lay down again.
But now, less than 5 mins, its getting bigger and bigger! The whole right part of my face was really bulging like just got a hit from Mike Tyson! So we decided to collect our stuffs and go rushy to emergency hospital. Believe me, when its not that nasty, I wont go to hospital!
On the way to hospital, all over my body started to be itchy and red, but not bulging (yet). Long queue in hospital but doctor called me first, he was shock to see monster face! He asked what happened during quickly prepare some stuffs for me. God! No matter I hate needle, I had to stay there for infusion!
But good thing that it worked fine. Less itchy and the red spot were gone from my body soon. My face still looks like monster, even till I'm writing this. But yea, it gets smaller. I have to put ice also n my face to help it faster. Doctor allow me to go home after 1 hour. He said it will take hours to make my face normal again. And it was really wise idea to drove fast to hospital, otherwise, the whole body will be like balloon!!
This nice young doctor said I had allergy of this unknown animal. I think its not a bee. When I was kid, I got stinged by bee many times, but never been this bad. And even when its really bee, doctor said its a NEW allergy! Perfect!
Moral of the story: nice weather is not guarantee to have fun :D
nb: Picture taken in a day before. Just to remind me hows my face before that bitch animal attacked me :D
So after several months had a healthy evening snack, this week I started to have a joy with sliced banana, put in a bowl and heap it up with 2 or 3 scopes vanilla ice cream. Awesome Beth!
I thought today would be lazy day. Last night went to bed late -watched 3 episode of Lost- so I could be freely to wake up late cos no school, no work for today.
So yes, woke up around eight (that's already 'late' for me :p), had breakfast and went to the gym. Was a good idea to go in the morning cos not much people there. Nils is on charge but as usual he just sitting lazily, read newspaper instead of doing inspecting.
Back from gym around 11am and cycled to supermarket to buy milk and carrot. Additionally, I got a hat of EUFA cup souvenir for only 1€ hehe...Got home, turn on computer and prepare some stuff in kitchen. Was looking forward to do 'heavy' cooking and just chatting around with friends.
But, oh no...something pop up on my business email. My last revision, unfortunately is not in order and deadline is approaching. Oh no! I have to work!
I put some stuff back to the fridge and pick up other stuffs which no need much time to cook while I unload laundry from the machine and cleaning up the room a little bit with mini vacuum cleaner. Geez...suddenly I had 10 hands!
Finished all of it, I went quick shower. Had plan to do bathing and some beauty masking but well...next time Beth.
After 3 minutes shower, got dressed, pick up some food on a plate while carrying a bottle of juice and start to move forward to my working table. Oh yes, will work till late today. No more movie tonight.
At least I work from home plus no kids. Still very able to handle it.
How bout Sylvie, my African friend who runs a church here? She has six kids and busy with church and household as well. How bout Ila, has to work in full time Supermarket and raises 2 kids as well with no maid and no husband.
Still refuse the fact that 'superwomen' really exist, eh?
You! Yes, I'm talking to you man!
Alright, back to work now. Have a nice day!
(note: abis ngobrol sama cowok nyebelin)
| Simone | Apr 16, '08 7:46 AM
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Yesterday I went to dentist for regular check up (every six months). Still go to same nice Ärztin (female doctor) Simone. And she's waaay to sweeet! Cos everytimes I tried to speak Deutsch, she always answer in English. She even ordered her assistant and reception to speak English with me too! Hey! My German improves a lot, ya know! I thought it only happens in Starbucks when waiters always 'push' me to speak English hehe... But well nevermind, I gave up...maybe she like to improves her English too 
 I think I really live in healthy life nowadays. My evening snack is plain boiled broccoli. Yes, surprise...surprise...Just like what happened between me and Amy Winehouse, I started from hate her and now I really love her...and that's happening between me and broccoli... (Sorry dear Amy, didn't mean to compare you with broccoli of course :) ) Nope, I'm not dieting...I just started to adore the great taste of that green stuff and and the feeling inside when I chew it in my mouth and swallow it. Whatta good feeling... Yum... Ps. When you eating it, ignore disgusted stare from anyone! repeat: anyone!
 Münster - Köln : 2.5 hours. Back fro meeting client. So I tried to draw myself from train window's reflection to overcome boredomSo yes, its me Nggak mirip blas! :D
 | Mudik! | Jan 22, '08 9:02 AM
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So hari ini guedapat short email yang isinya: Thx Beth! Thats it, not even salam penutup. But I do really appreciate it! Bagaimana tidak?
Lama saya kerja freelance dengan bapak ini, dia nggak pernah muji tapi juga nggak pernah complain...plus nggak pernah satu kalipun bilang terima kasih. Jadi tiap kali kirim imil, isinya cuman: Can you do this...Can you do that...I need this...I need that... Dan guepun selalu ngerjain apa yang diminta dengan kata pengantar yang baik dan benar, secara dia klien gue; Hallo pak Anu, here is bla..bla...Let me know if you have problem to open it, let me know if I need to change the color, dont hesitate to let me know if..if...Daaan...Bapak itu selalu langsung menghilang begitu saja, no thank you, not even said OK sampai datang orderan berikutnya: Beth, can you do this, I need that... Memang not a big deal dan gue juga nggak merasa pantas untuk cerewet soal unnecessary feedback dari klien gue. Paling gue cuma mikir, apa susahnya sih kasih feedback dikit? At least gue tau kalau imil gue nyampe. Namun bila anglenya dibalik, gue yang jadi klien, gue mungkin juga nggak merasa perlu untuk mengucapkan kata terima kasih. Toh itu memang kerjaan dia, gue puas dengan kerjaan dia dan dia dapat bayaran yang pantas. Impas kan? Namun yah...ketika pagi ini, untuk pertama kalinya saya mendapati email beliau dengan dua kata pendek itu, gue merasa kerjaan gue lebih dihargai :) You are welcome Pak!
I think I have obsession with Luke Skywalker and outer space stuffs!
In Facebook there is an application called '10 seconds interview' where the computer will ask you random questions about everything (e.g. whats your mummy wrote in your lunch box, Jessica Alba or Jessica Simpson? etc...) and you have to answer it as fast as you can, before 10 seconds which I really do!
And so far from 451 questions, I had answered 164...and these are 8 of them: - If I lived in year 2100, my profession will be:
:: Astronaut
- What is/was your imaginary friend’s name?
:: Luke - If I could control my dream, I’ll dream about:
:: Outer space - Quick! Make up a first name!
:: Luke - If you didn’t have to work, what will you do with your time?
:: Apply to be an outer space tourist - I’m looking forward to:
:: Go to outer space for free - My name should be listed in Wikipedia entry for:
:: First Indonesian on the moon - What do you think you'll name your kid?
:: Luke
Forgive, sounds good.
Forget, I'm not sure I could.
They say time heals everything,
But I'm still waiting
I'm through, with doubt,
There's nothing left for me to figure out,
I've paid a price, and i'll keep paying
I'm not ready to make nice,
I'm not ready to back down,
I'm still mad as hell
And I don't have time
To go round and round and round
It's too late to make it right
I probably wouldn't if I could
Cause I'm mad as hell
Can't bring myself to do what it is
You think I should
I know you said
Why can't you just get over it,
It turned my whole world around
and i kind of like it
I made by bed, and I sleep like a baby,
With no regrets and I don't mind saying,
It's a sad sad story
That a mother will teach her daughter
that she ought to hate a perfect stranger.
And how in the world
Can the words that I said
Send somebody so over the edge
That they'd write me a letter
Saying that I better shut up and sing
Or my life will be over
Saya percaya bahwa setiap manusia pasti punya rasa tidak suka kepada orang lain untuk alasan yang nggak penting. Misalnya, saya tidak suka Angelina Jolie karena menurut saya sikapnya artificial banget (nope, not because Brad Pitt, I dont like him either!). Atau saya nggak suka dengan si A karena becandanya aneh, selalu salah sikap di segala situasi dan nggak asyik diajak ngobrol. Tentang si A yang merupakan teman kuliah saya dulu, bukan saya saja yang sebel dengan si A. Hampir semua orang yang kenal dia nggak suka termasuk seorang teman pernah ingin numpang pipis di rumah saya. Begitu nyampe di depan pintu dan melihat si A ada di rumah saya, dia mendadak jadi nggak pengen pipis dan balik lagi ke mobil, nggak mau masuk rumah blas (untung saya nggak separah itu antinya hehe...) Dan di kelas bahasa Jerman saya, ada cewek Tunisia yang tingkahnya bikin yang lain sebel. Setiap hari cerita tentang suaminya yang kaya raya, shopping ini-itu, belanja emas berkilo-kilo dan dengan bangga bilang kalau nggak perlu kerja karena suaminya kaya (padahal dia termasuk berpendidikan, lulusan universitas di Prancis dan bahasa Prancisnya lancar). Lama kelamaan si cewek ini jadi nggak punya teman di kelas. Saya juga malas dan sebel ngobrol dengan dia, karena selain belagu, obrolannya juga tak pernah berkembang hehe... Namun, menurut saya, rasa tidak suka kalau dibiarkan terus bikin suasana hati nggak tentram juga. Maka saya selalu punya cara jitu khusus menghilangkan rasa tidak suka ini. Yaitu justru dengan mendekati orang-orang yang kita benci. Percobaan pertama saya adalah dengan si A. Saya sering telpun dia, ajak main or hunting foto bareng dan akhirnya meskipun dia masih tetep balagu dan aneh, namun saya menemukan sisi lain darinya yang bikin saya klik. Jadinya kebelaguan si A itu jadi tak terhiraukan oleh saya. Ayem deh hati. Nah dengan si cewek Tunisia ini juga gitu...tadi di kelas dia lupa belum ngerjain PR, dan jadi gelagepan ketika ditanya oleh guru. Saya dengan sukarela bantu dia menjawab pertanyaan demi pertanyaan (padahal sebelumnya saya seneng banget melihat dia gelagapan begitu hehe...) dan kitapun jadi ngobrol. Oke, obrolannya tetep tentang berkilo-kilo emas yang dia beli...tapi ya so what gitu lho...mungkin suaminya raja minyak, jadi ya biar aja borong emas hehe...
Jadinya damai deh hati...nggak ada rasa benci :) (Btw saya nggak bisa approach Angelina Jolie untuk menghilangkan ketidaksukaan saya padanya, soalnya dia jauh rumahnya!)
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